Laugh when you should cry

Sometimes you laugh when it's not funny. Sometimes that's all you can do because if you don't, you can't help but be swallowed up by what is really going on.  Because what's really going on is so overwhelming at that moment, and if you don't laugh, you're liable to cry and you don't know if you will be able to stop.

  We are in the middle of a job change. Let me tell you something: it's scary.  I know that God has us. I know that we will be ok.  But change is scary, and sometimes fear and doubt creep in where they don't belong.  Tonight I am awake when I should be asleep.  My stomach is irritated. My mind racing.  Yet I know that this physical reaction to an emotional distress will prove to be fruitless. If not for the now lack of desire for that coveted ice cream. See? Already a light.